Feb 5, 2015

Stage Fear - (gulp) - yet again!


Gesture Study - Sooryansh

So, how do you come back on stage to face the crowd?

I have been away for so very long.. Many times I'll take my sketchbook to make a new sketch; open it and then close it.. Many times I'd open my blog to put up a new scribble, and then look at my sketch and go, 'Nah, that doesn't really look so good..' I'd yawn and browse other websites and then shut down the computer feeling sick about the time wasted on browsing.. Sometimes I'll post one sketch.. and then feel something odd about how I haven't really shown my face for so long, and now.. a sketch? Eeek!! Oh! And, I stopped telling the story long long back...

But really, what is it that holds me back?

What is it that holds anyone back from making a comeback? Is it the feeling that, when I do come back, there would be no one looking for me? Is it the feeling that the world has meanwhile changed and I may not know this new world? Is it the feeling that I am still at the same place while the world around has moved leaps and paces ahead, and, let alone me catching up, the world would see how I haven't grown? Is it the feeling that someone might ask, ' Do I know you?' Is it the feeling that I may actually have been forgotten?

What is it?

I figured out that the only way to get back on the wagon, is to simply, just get back on it.. Just jump in..!! And then who knows..? I may meet old friends. I may make new ones. I may fall off the wagon yet again. But at least I'll know I can always get back on!!! Welcoming what comes...

4 comments:

Sundaram Raman said...

Welcome back, Shalini. We have been missing you and your artistic treasures for a long time now. What a come back!! with Sooryansh working on his casio!! Feast to the eyes.

Deepthi said...

Welcome back linisha. You're doing great.

Shalini said...

Thank you :)

Prabha (bablee) said...

great sketches and etching your feelings. I love the trial of lovehearts from Sooryansh's finger to toy....it's his love for the toy that you have effectively sketched....only a mother's love could have grasped that....your sketches and words as always are great, touching and powerful.Keep going!

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